Entitled Bystander

You just stand there and watch me leave.

You just stand there and watch it happen.

You just stand there watching the worst.

You just stand there watching people doing.

You just stand there because you can.

You’re standing there, standing for nothing.

Standing on the bridge they’re walking over.

You’re making it easy, easy to be.

Because you just stand there, can’t you see?

the haze we see through

I’ll tell you what it’s all about.

As an adjective, casual is defined as: relaxed and unconcerned.

As a noun, it is defined as: a person who does something irregularly.

Comfy pant Saturday nights, drinking pumpkin beer on a cold fall day, festival hallucinogens, tie-die Fridays at work, hungover shower pees. It happens, casually.

Some human activities are meant to be casual. We can’t do everything in a concerned and tight manner, and people who have no irregularity are boring. But, keeping it chill translates into no strings attached which really is an excuse to live day by day which means that you really aren’t trying. Living casually is a way to get by. But when it comes to that part of the day when you find yourself alone, the ticking of the clock is the only song playing, you realize casual is what’s making your life hard. It’s keeping the goods at bay.  It’s too easy to be casual and to treat things as so. Causal feels good. Looks good. Intends to be good. But that moment when you treat what you want as casual, is the moment that you lose it. Because, some things should be treated with purpose and definition. Some things need to be grabbed by you with swagger and dignity. Because in the long run, casual can translate into indifference which can lead to carelessness, and all the while can let the things in your life that you could actually want slip right on through. It feels damn good acquiring something that you didn’t casually get.

Have casuals, but don’t live casually.

Live with purpose, and do casual things with people you enjoy…or by yourself. Act with pursuit, and casually boast about it.  Because it’s not about the things you did half assed and occasionally. When you’re old, you’re not going to remember what wasn’t important. You’re not going to remember the casual living. So, don’t let it consume your life. Don’t let it dictate your future. Don’t let the good things pass you by because they required more permanent and directive thinking.

Figure out what you want. Decide to get it. Feel it in your hands. Have it.

That’s what it’s all about.

 

 

 

An Untitled Mess

It’s been awhile since I’ve written a blog post–so long that the WordPress layout looks different. Yikes! It’s not that I haven’t thought about writing, because every day I have at least one thought that I want to expand on in a blog post…However, I simply have been struggling gathering my thoughts into a sophisticated–alright, organized–manner. There are so many things going on in my life. So much, that at times all I do is sit on the couch and Netflix for hours ha ha…By that, I mean the drama of my life has been overwhelming my brain so it resorts to the enjoyment mode rather than the productive mode. This enjoyment mode has given my life some variety. Instead of romantic comedies taking up most of my days, now action packed thrillers have been added to the watch list. Yay!

I hope you can sense the sarcasm. It’s true, much of my life the past few months has been spent in front of the television (when I’m not at school, work, or the dive bar down the street from me.) I have let life get the best of me more than a few times, recently. Mostly, what gets me isn’t so much how life is presently, but how my future looks like.

This is what my mindset has been: I have to finish up this last year of school, and after I graduate my life can FINALLY start to live the way I want. I will finally be able to quit my job as a server, move to any city I want, and pursue the business dreams I have.

This still takes up much of my mindset, however in this last semester of school, it has begun to dawn on me that life may not be as freeing as I think it will be. I will have extra massive student loan bills, my car is about to die on me, and my residence situation continues to spew complications.

To say my life is a mess, is not true. To say my life is easy, is not true. To say I know where I am going next, is not true. To say I know what I want, is not true. What I can say is true is I am more open to finding myself and discovering what makes me happy. I have always lived in the moment–a bit of a flaw at times, but also a bit of a blessing. As I continue to live in the moment, I also have the pressure to become the person I want to be. Now, I am not completely sure who that is, but I can say from this point forward I am much more aware of my surroundings, and how happy I truly am in them.

My future scares the shit out me–mostly because I think that the mistakes I make will lead me into the wrong direction. I am terrified I am going to settle with life. Now this has always been something I said I would never do. But as each year passes, I now see it as something that can easily happen. I now understand why so many people end up at the places they are–it’s easy to fall into something and just stick to it for YEARS.

Well, this is the time not to “just do something.” Now is the time to DO SOMETHING BECAUSE OF SOMETHING. This goes for everybody, any age, any time in their life. When life starts to become something you aren’t proud of, there is always time to do something/ create something that you are proud to call yours.

Food for thought.

“Nah, I’m good” is what killed you

I have not been able to sleep in the past 2 weeks. 

And when I do sleep, I have dreams just as real as reality.

My life is changing.

My mind is changing.

Change is happening around me.

Guys, I haven’t watched Netflix in 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS. Not even like a 30 minute How I Met Your Mother! I mean something must be going on when your ENTIRE TEAM IS NOT SLEEPING.

“Something’s up”


I’m only going to say this once here: If your response to this opportunity is “nah, I’m good,” I promise you that you will find something else to do with your life, and I promise you that you missed an enormous opportuntiy. That’s it. That’s all it is. You said “nah” before you even looked into it! So, OK.

 The point is THIS IS BIG, so LOOK INTO IT. Ask questions. Be skeptical. Be smart. Be aware. CONTACT ME.

YOU are Your Biggest Enemy

As cliche as it sounds, it’s true. You are your biggest enemy. 

“UH OH!”

You are going to be put through this test multiple times in your life, and you are going to see that you will probably respond differently each time. As you experience new things, you as an intelligence grows. You will naturally learn how to react to an experience.

“Focus on this moment, and nothing else. You in this moment are fine. Everything is perfect. Breath in, breath out. “

Now, after this point, you should react. Give it a try. I think you’ll be surprised with what you find happens.

The hardest part of being part of the success industry is getting out of your comfort zone. This is THEE HARDEST THING. If you can overcome this, you will find success. I know it. Now, the key is to push yourself to your best, to obtain the greatest success. If your limits aren’t being stretched as far as they can, you are HOLDING YOURSELF BACK! This is self destruction. 

Open your mind. Allow your physical self to experience new things so your mind can grow. I’m tellin’ you guys, THIS concept is pure gold. 

Imagine this with me: There is an open field. You are at one end, and success is at the other end. But between you and success, there is a small barbed wired fence. It’s relatively low to the ground, and doesn’t present fatal danger. Now, wouldn’t you find a way to get over that fence?!

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