For the heartbroken

Breakups sure do screw with you. I’ve went from having an entire apartment full of my stuff to having just a lil room. My life got turned upside down. It’s been quite a ride, and sitting back thinking about it all, grateful is what I feel. I’ve been able to make wherever I live comfortable, homey and, most importantly, me. Frequently, I have thought myself out of self loathing, and found new meanings to things. I am one of those hopeless romantic types, and with that comes great heartache. I have lived a version of my own hell, and made my way out a bit taller.

It’s never too late to find yourself and discover what you want. Make the best out of situations, and don’t lose sight of what’s important to you.

Hey, we all have those moments where we feel our whole world is crashing on top of us. Grinding teeth, shaky hands, and stuttering words are side effects of shit hitting the fan. I am no stranger to tough emotional times–just like everyone else. I think it’s important to remember that you’re not in it alone. You are not the only person feeling tragic and hopeless. And guess what? You WILL get through it. I promise you. Lame as it sounds, time will make things better. Perspectives will change. You’ll start to feel stronger. The little things will become more important. Life will be enjoyable again in ways you thought weren’t possible.

For me, my head and heart are constantly fighting. I actually have dreams of me shouting at myself, “Stop caring!” I often wonder if it’s better to be smart and protect your heart, but then I wonder if it’s better to love hard even if you might get hurt. It’s a predicament that I’m sure many can relate to. Heartache sucks ass. Big time. Even if you allow yourself only a week or even a day to feel sad, that week or day will be the longest and suckiest time you’ve had in awhile. Guaranteed torture. Like rib stabbing torture. Heartache is heartache–no matter how long it lasts.

The conclusion I’ve come to, at this moment in my life, is that feeling is the most important thing to me. I want to feel it all–happiness, excitement, flattery, pain, heartache, disappointment…As long as I know I am living out every moment, I’m okay with the fact that afterwards may not feel as great. I guess I’d rather love than to not love. I’d rather hurt after a heartache, than not have that love in the first place. Give me pain if it means I can feel love.

Life is like a lake

When a wave crashes into the rocks, the energy of the wave is absorbed back into the waves behind it–adding to another wave that moves around the rocks and coasts into the beach. No matter what, the wave WILL reach land. The waves are working together. The lake is one body–one universe

So maybe it works the same way with thee universe.

Every decision, tumble, or regret we make creates momentum within us. It is what propels us to what we do next. There are no missteps. Only experience that adds to the momentum of our life.

Say life is a straight line. And every step we make is on that straight line, even if we don’t feel like it is. Even if we feel lost, or going the wrong direction. Everything behind us is contributing to our next step on that straight line. Meaning, our past is pushing for our future. The past does not dictate the future, but it’s the energy left over that leads us to our right path.

So, if life is like a lake full of waves, then no matter what, our destiny is to touch land. If we let the lake guide us and help us we can soon coast into land. But if we fight it–ignore our intuition and that maybe the universe wants us to succeed, then we’ll stay stuck out in deep rough water.

Your path is there. The matter isn’t finding it, but it’s allowing yourself to trust the universe enough to lead you to it.

Live life. Enjoy life. Love life.