You don’t know her world, but how could you?
She sees different colors.
You don’t feel the tightrope that cuts through her feet and makes her feel strong.
She walks it alone.
You don’t feel how her thoughts surround her.
She feels it all.
Sometimes she doesn’t know if she’s falling, or if she’s dancing,
So she embraces both.
I’d hate to burst your bubble so let me elevate you to a level of understanding.
You’re so quick to the tongue that your teeth are in the way for words to find a landing.
You are a tie-dye kept together with the rubber bands of someone else’s bindings.
You spit out words of a person before.
It’s so quick that you don’t even notice their reflection in your mirror.
I bet that rotten taste in your mouth
is left over from when you went south.
You have your bubble and world of mime.
Let’s play bumper cars, I know I’ll have a good time.
It was the day when you said nothing that spoke the loudest.
In that same day, I felt a chill pass through me. It must have been your ghost.
The words stuck on the tip of my tongue toppled over the brim of my lips and fell.
Heavy like a weighted lure, they found the ground quick.
I walked right over them, lifting my legs high.
I felt a cold push on my back, and I propelled myself forward.
Ooo don’t provoke me.
I’ve held hot coals only to drop them to the ground.
I was thrown off a cliff, I’ve got jagged bones to prove it.
I’ve been kicked to the dirt, hell I slept in it.
Don’t you dare tell me otherwise,
because the truth of it all
is I stripped myself down
when I put me first.
You bewilder me.
You simplify my thoughts,
breaking them down and stretching them out.
You make ordinary something to look forward to.
Your scent lingers with me just like I want it to.
Because when I think you’re one flavor, sometimes I get more.
What can I say,
I like cake, and I want more of it.
Looking at yesterday, you feel it brush against you.
Its touch is sticky.
That’s where you stood, how you lived.
The moments that brought you to today, sting
Because to stand where you stand now, took courage.
To have courage you had to be strong.
To feel your strength you must have lived in pain.
Because when you look at where you stood then,
You can see the ice cracking under your feet.
To this day you can feel the water take your breath away.
That cold, that damn cold will always run through your veins.
Looking at today, you feel it lay on you.
It’s where you stand, how you’ve landed.
Yesterday may always sting,
But look at you now
Standing on solid ground .
I was living in a house of white walls. I would get lost in them, staring at them for what felt like hours. My thoughts would go nowhere and everywhere at the same time—around and around in circles they went. It wasn’t until I put up some art, something to look at, that my thoughts found direction.
When you’re searching for something, it helps to have something in front of you… because something is better than nothing. Something will take you somewhere.