This is it, the end of college. Shit. I mean, hooray!

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“I should ask them for a ride,” said the girl from my class as we were walking out of the building. She was talking about a pickup truck stopped at the stoplight  with 4 rowdy college boys in the bed of it–no tailgate. I laughed. (It’s one of the first nice days after dealing with yucky winter, so as you can see people were celebrating.) Then the next moment she is running across the street to really ask them for a ride! After a little budging, 3 guys inside open the doors and let her jump in. I laugh again in disbelief–mostly at the fact that she literally just jumped into a truck full of people she doesn’t know. (Now I know you may be thinking that a girl getting into a car full of strange guys isn’t the smartest, but keep in mind that this happened in broad daylight and Spartans tend to generally see the good in people.) 

After the light turned red again, I crossed the street and preceded to walk to my bus stop across campus. Along the way I couldn’t but help but think about that girl. Not that what she did was a bad or dangerous decision, but that I wish I could be as spontaneous as that. I would never do something that crazy and out of the blue. I mean, I do do spontaneous things sometimes, but never have I decided something that quick! That truck was waiting for the light to turn green. When I saw them, my only thought was “haha that’s funny.” While, this girl was already thinking about running over and asking them for a ride!

 

Lately, I have been searching for some inspiration.  Finishing up my last semester of college has got me seriously freaking out about the fucking future. I’m graduating from a Big 10 University, and I STILL don’t know what I want to do when I grow up. My plan was to have this figured out by now. It’s only been this last year that I have actually begun to enjoy my major. So, what should I do?

No idea here.

So. That is why I am searching for some inspiration. I need to find out what makes me excited about life. What makes me passionate. I have began to feel a lot of inspiration and passion for a business of mine, but I’m looking for even more. I’m looking for a  new mindset, and a happy balance in life. I know whatever journey I am about to embark on is not going to be easy. The lost and wandering college grad doesn’t get it’s bad rep from nothing. But, I’m actually excited about this part of my life. Now, that statement might totally bite me in the ass here soon, but I’m keeping an open mind.

So, back to the girl who jumped in the truck. She reminded me that life is about living! I gotta get out there! Too often I find myself cooped up not taking any risks. AND I’M SO BORED. Not to say that my life is boring, but I am bored with doing the same ol shit sometimes. I’m craving something brand spankin new, even if it scares the poop out of me.

Netflix, it’s been real. But I’ve gotta cut down our chill time. It’s not you, you’re great. Seriously, great. It’s me…

 

The bottomless pit called my stomach

You know you have a problem when you can no longer taste the crispy cream doughnut sunday you are shoving into your mouth. Looking at me, you wouldn’t suspect pigging out being a regular ritual of mine, however I must confess I do a fair share of late night binge eating. Thanks to mah lady Jane my already overactive sweet tooth turns into a monster I cannot control. Luckily I have been blessed with an oddly awesome metabolism, and each morning I drink my coffee feeling thin and ready for a cheeseburger.

This morning however, I woke up, drank my coffee, and indulged in my favorite yogurt and granola breakfast. Today feels like a good day to start eating healthy…again. Now, you must understand something about me. I am pretty good at sticking to a diet/way of living for roughly about two weeks max…

I have always struggled to keep to a routine. Usually I always go for the healthy alternative. That’s my first reaction and one I truly desire. However on such occurrences that my taste buds shun my brain, I typically then go for the ice cream followed by meaty cravings.

A reverse incident happened last night when my lovely boyfriend, best friend, and I went to a local favorited dive bar for several appetizers and burger meals washed down with our classic drink of choice–cold beers. It was delicious, and there was no guilt in any bite. We then made our journey back to the house where I finished off the night with a Melting Moments ice cream sandwich while getting worked up from a few games of Mario Cart.  I cherish nights like these–great company, great food, great beer, and great laughs. This spring has already had its handfuls of great nights, and I suspect this summer is going to be one of those great ones. 

As to the food issue. I am looking for that motivation to work out daily again and live a more healthy lifestyle. Pigging out is definitely fun, and will probably make its way into my life some nights, but I will not be held down with regret every night. So, cheers to more healthy choices, regular exercising, and feeling great…Maybe a cookie here and there 😉

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